When familiar becomes offensive to self

Cin Webb

30 Oct 2025 — 1 min read

Cin, Aboriginal person wearing glasses with bluish frame. cin has two septum piercings and two rings in each nostril, and two lower lip piercings, one centre and one on the right side. Cin has short dark salt and pepper hair. squished face

You know the feeling of wearing shoes and the rubbing on your heels and you can tolerate it to a degree til you take them off and try and put them back on again and its intolerable?

This is like healing

You grow from past situations or cycles

And find yourself in a similar space

Its familiar

Yet it becomes intolerable

To be there anymore

I recognised shoulder pain when i walked away from repeating the cycle of depleting me for people who saw me as a source to extract from. That i absolutely allowed! Not all on them!

Took me a bit to realise the shoulder pain is me realising physically how heavy that all was. What i was willingly carrying cause i couldnt completely hold my own self worth.

I hope this paid lingers long enough as a reminder that was never mine to carry.

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While sleigh bells ring, here the sun stings

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