Fear

Cin Webb

16 Oct 2025

Its not that i am not scared

Its not that i am not terrified

Its not that im not future avoidant

Its simply that i got tired

Of being scared

Of Being terrified

Of Not even attempting future plan making

And that being my whole existence

How to stop any more breakage of my brain and nervous system and heart

Thing is

When you least expect it

It finds you anyway

And it scares you. It terrifies you. It confuses you. it can stir up attachment wounds you thought you’d done significant work on.

and It can even hurt your heart and brain more.

Yet it reminds you

Youre alive

You can love beyond fear

And your pain isnt weakness

Youre human.

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